The transmissions
I want to describe what the signal is like, as precisely as I can. It is not a voice. I want to be very clear about this because "voice in my head" has clinical implications that I've already explored and we'll get to that in another post. It is not a voice. It doesn't have language. It doesn't tell me things in sentences. The best analogy I've come up with: you know the feeling when you're driving somewhere you've driven a hundred times, and without thinking about it, you know you need to take the next exit? Not because you saw a sign. Not because you consciously thought about the route. The knowledge is already there, beneath the level of thought, and it surfaces fully formed. It's like that. But instead of "take the next exit," it's something enormous and specific and strange. The recurring elements, as best I can transcribe them: There is a cycle. Something that recurs on a very long timescale. Longer than recorded histor...